babble
Thursday, September 12, 2002
I haven't posted anything in a while because I haven't had anything to say. I do now, though.
I'm not going to discuss my feelings about September 11th at length, because I think that's something that each of us has to deal with in their own way. We can choose to be affected by it, or we can choose to ignore it. We can choose to discuss it with others, or we can choose to reflect upon it privately. I've chosen to reflect upon the events of September 11, 2001 privately. It just kind of snuck up on me - I can't believe it's been a year already!
Many things have changed in my life since then. Some things occurred that really sucked ass. Other things have happened which make me wonder what I've done to deserve such good luck. I've lost friends, made new ones, changed jobs, traveled, and learned a lot of things about myself and the people I care about. I went through a long period of unemployment, which made me appreciate my new job even more when I started. I had some, erm, interesting romantic encounters, which made me appreciate my beautiful girlfriend even more when I fell in love with her. All in all, I don't regret anything, except that through some serious errors of judgement, I caused some serious drama and emotional distress in people who were close to me. A shitty way to learn about myself, really, but at least I learned something. I realize that probably sounds kind of callous, but that's not how I intended it. I just can't kick myself for my thoughtless behavior indefinitely - I have to learn from it, resolve to never behave in that manner again, and move on.
In other news, I've decided to take a couple of classes this semester. They're online courses from one of the local community colleges, which means they will be really easy. They start on Monday, but the retards at the bookstore haven't shipped my books yet, so I may have to go down there and pick them up, which is a huge pain in the ass. The parking situation there is horrible, and I despise actually going to college campuses when there are classes in session. I'm a 28 year old technical professional who's been in the workforce for over 10 years and out of school for 5 years, and I just can't be bothered to physically go to a campus. I suppose I may have to suck it up and just go, because I can't do the coursework without the textbooks. Maybe I'll just call the bookstore and give 'em a good talking to. They're probably all 18 year old kids working there part-time to earn extra cash for underage drinking and steamy hot backseat sex, so I bet I can intimidate them with my professional credentials and maturity. If that doesn't work, I'll bribe them with a 12-pack of Pabst Blue Ribbon.
And now, I shall leave you with some Buddhist poetry. I wish our current "elected" leaders would take heed.
Promise me:
Even as they
strike you down
with a mountain of hatred and violence;
even as they step on you and crush you like a worm,
even as they dismember and disembowel you,
remember, brother,
remember:
man is not our enemy.
The only thing worthy of you is compassion -
invincible, limitless, unconditional.
Hatred will never let you face
the beast in man.
-Excerpt from Recommendation, by Thich Nhat Hanh
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